Delving Into Silence
As I reflect on our human experiences, what’s really coming up strongly for me is how we can benefit from more silence as we navigate this human experience. I'm feeling the need a lot to be quieter, to be able to sit with what's really going on, as opposed to being reactive to stuff outside.
I think there's so much happening out there, energetically as well as with other people, with the cosmos, with the world, with, you know, everything, and everybody's got a story about it.
I feel like we can get attached to different aspects of the story and make things wrong and almost justify our uncomfortable experience, as opposed to being quiet and allowing ourselves to settle into what's underneath all of it and experience what's really going on.
I've recently been digging up some trauma from my childhood that has been impacting how I respond to certain circumstances when I'm triggered. I’ve acutely become aware of how important silence becomes; I’m finding the need to walk and sit by the sea and be in nature more and more. Also, to just be quiet, to find space where I don’t need to converse, explain myself, justify my experience or to put words to discomfort if it arises. And it’s been rising a fair bit recently. It's interesting to silence the chattering mind as it starts to label things ‘why I'm feeling this way or that’.
“Although the mind might be a trigger to why I’m feeling a certain way, underneath it’s more, underneath it’s much more.”
I'm really interested in delving into the deeper layers of my existence because I think that when I can get into the deeper aspects of my psyche and particularly my vulnerability, I can start to connect more deeply with myself and feel more empowered. From this space I can be kinder to myself, more compassionate, and then when the triggers arise, rather than attaching to stuff being wrong, I can sit quietly with depth, with inner feelings, and learn...
It's almost, like learning to parent the child in me, learning how to sit with her and learning how to allow the vulnerability to arise and allow the truth of it to arise, rather than sticking my head in the sand and pretending it's not happening or trying to justify my experience. Justifying the experience can be unhelpful because I have a habit of attaching to things when something feels uncomfortable because I need to justify my discomfort. But maybe I/we don't have to justify our discomfort, maybe we can learn to go underneath it, sit with it, meet it, be kind to it, talk to it and talk to that part of ourselves that we hide away.
When we attach our discomfort to external factors, we actually avoid what’s most important. And so, those triggers will keep happening until we get underneath. So I invite everybody to go a little bit deeper, to get a bit quieter, and explore what's really happening, what's really going on underneath it all. And then we can create more freedom, more joy, more comfort, more connection to those deeper parts of ourselves.
Blessings to one and all.
Jyoti
